I'm on a mood leveler, Lexapro, 30mg/day (one 20mg tablet and a second tablet snapped in half). It's a daily practice, one I've tried to keep to with religious fervor, because if I wind up skipping a day...or more...when I run out...and don't or can't renew the prescription...dumbass...I get kinda emotionally unstable.
I feel less grounded, less centered, less in control of my emotions and reactions to them and to other people (hey sweetie!), more reactive (in a bad way), less thoughtful or mindful of what's happening to me as a result.
But I'm not under indictment for anything that I've done while off my meds. And that's a good thing!
From the Revolution Health Network,
Exercise isn't a cure for depression or anxiety. But its psychological and physical benefits can improve your symptoms.So right now I'm aware that I need to exercise and that I'm not making the time to do that.
"It's not a magic bullet, but increasing physical activity is a positive and active strategy to help manage depression and anxiety," says Kristin Vickers-Douglas, Ph.D., a psychologist at Mayo Clinic, Rochester, Minn.
So Obama won the election, strange people are coming for Thanksgiving next week, Christmas is coming and there are birthdays right behind Christmas.
I'm fat, I hate the way I look, I have no money of my own and I'm afraid to go back to work.
I suppose confession is good for the soul, but there's no guarantee that it'll be my soul that it's good for.